So you know ...

Our baby isn't going to make it.

Sorry to shock you all, but I don't know how else to say it. After meeting with a doctor and undergoing amniocentesis, we've confirmed that I'm experiencing a partial molar pregnancy and that our baby girl has triploidy, a chromosomal defect that is lethal. As a result, she will be stillborn some time in the coming months or will live only a few hours after birth.

We're actually OK. There is nothing we did to make this happen, and we know there is nothing we can do to change the outcome. We firmly believe in God and that His will is always the best for us, even if it doesn't seem like it at the time. It's a hard prospect to face, but we know this baby is a part of our family forever no matter how long we get to experience her presence here on earth.

We appreciate all the prayers, support and kindness that you all have extended to our family and hope we'll continue to be recipients. We still want to hear about you, your lives and your children, whom I hope you'll give an extra hug. Healthy babies are a huge blessing, and we are so grateful to have one in our home already. And we have complete faith that we'll be having more in the near future.

I hope you don't mind if I chronicle our experience a bit on this blog in case we might help someone else in a similar situation. But also don't be offended if I resume my normal frivolous blog banter.

I'm just letting myself do and feel whatever comes naturally. And I think that's normal.